NaNoWriMo

Reality Check – Third Excerpt

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Here’s another installment from my 2006 NaNoWriMo project.

I have comments turned off, not because I don’t want your feedback, but because I can’t afford to think about revising at this point – I hope you understand. 🙂

Please remember, this is straight from my rough draft – I’ve done virtually no editing. 🙂

Thanks for reading and KEEP WRITING!

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She sighed. “They were in a car accident.” She closed her eyes and relived the memory as she spoke. “It was late, around 1:00 in the morning, I believe. We were coming from dad’s retirement party. It had been great,” she turned and smiled at Dalton. “The associates at Liberty really went all out. They had rented a huge auditorium at the Plaza Hotel, champagne flowed, I remember there was a lot of laughter. Everyone had pitched in and bought him a really nice silver watch AND,” she held up two fingers, “two tickets for a Caribbean cruise.” She smiled at the memory. “They were so surprised! And very excited. My father was sort of a workaholic – he would never take vacations even though mom begged him to. This cruise would have been perfect for them.” Her face fell. “They never had a chance to go.” A white hot stab of grief sliced through her heart and tears began to pool in her eyes. “I … I had been following them. We were going back to their house to wind down and just … celebrate, as a family.” She sniffed, a lone tear followed the gentle swell of her cheek.

Dalton reached for a tissue and handed it to her. She took it and blew her nose.

“I saw it happen,” her voice was so low Dalton had to lean forward in order to hear her. “A drunk driver crossed the medium and hit them. The police told me he had to be going 80 or 90 miles per hour. My folks … never … had a … chance.”

She swallowed and continued softly, her voice breaking at irregular intervals. “I watched them die.” She lifted moist, glassy eyes to him. “I slammed on my brakes and almost rear-ended them. I swerved and ran off the road. I got out of my car so fast I tripped and twisted my ankle. But I didn’t notice. All I could do was pray that my parents were okay. That they somehow survived.” She crossed back over to the bar stools and sat down. She grabbed another tissue and blew her nose again.

There was a long pause. Brenna could hear the soft rustling of leaves outside, a distant police siren, the steady tick, tick, ticking of the wall clock. “I reached the car.” She breathed in deeply. She shredded the tissue as she spoke. She could see it all so clearly. It had happened right next to a streetlight. Her parents’ car was bathed in soft blue light. She approached the vehicle from the rear. It was in perfect condition. She had almost convinced herself it had all been a bad dream until she walked around to the passenger side door and saw the shattered windshield. She hadn’t wanted to look inside the car, but she had to. If she could somehow save her parents, she had to try.

“I yanked on the passenger door. I could see my mother. Her head was resting on the headrest. Her face …” she swallowed, “her face, neck and chest were covered in blood.” She sobbed, grabbed another tissue and buried her face in it.

Dalton clasped his hands between his legs, lowered his head and sighed. “I’m so sorry, Brenna.” He didn’t offer more. There was nothing he could say that would make her feel better.

She didn’t hear him. All she could see was her mother, lying prone on the seat, her beautiful lavender silk blouse soaked in blood. She wasn’t breathing.

“I knew she was dead,” she continued, her voice toneless, dead. “I ran to the driver’s side. I could see my father slumped over the steering wheel. His head was resting on his right hand, his left hand was on the dashboard, as if he were still bracing for impact. He wasn’t bleeding, at least on the outside,” she added, almost as an afterthought. “His eyelids fluttered. I think I screamed, ‘DAD!’ though I can’t be sure. All I remember was trying to frantically get his door open. It was crumbled inward. I pulled so hard I dislocated my right shoulder. But I didn’t know that until later.” She stated matter of factly.

“I opened the car door behind him and crawled into the back seat. I scrambled to reach him, desperate to save him.

“He was breathing, but only barely. I could hear a soft wheeze with each labored breath. I gently touched his shoulder as I leaned in between them.

‘Dad,’ I said. ‘Help is on the way. Hang on, please hang on.’ I couldn’t see his face very clearly, he had it turned toward the window, but I could hear something, a raspy whispering, as if he were trying to talk to me. I stopped breathing and listened.

‘Is she dead?’ I wasn’t sure what to tell him. My parents have always had a sixth sense when it came to each other. They were so in love you see,” she sputtered an exasperated, desperate chuckle. “I knew he would know if I lied. But I tried, I honestly tried.

‘I think she’s okay, unconscious, but okay.’ He didn’t believe me. ‘She’s dead, isn’t she.’ What could I say? So I said nothing. ‘You’re going to be okay, dad. Just please, hang on. Some other cars have stopped. I’m sure someone has called 911.’ I can’t be sure of this part,” she paused and tilted her head toward the ceiling as if studying the tiles would somehow confirm her doubts, “but I think he chuckled. ‘You could never lie to me, Bren. I know she’s gone. I can’t feel her presence anymore.’ He said. I began to cry. I couldn’t handle this, I couldn’t handle watching him die. I could hear sirens in the background, help was coming. ‘Dad, do you hear that? They’re coming, hang on. Please, dear God, don’t leave me.

I love you, Brenna’ he had said. And I knew. I knew as soon as he heard mom was dead he was going to give up. His soul mate, his lover, his best friend was gone. There was simply nothing left for him to live for. I stroked his hair. I kept talking to him. I kept fooling myself into thinking he was still breathing and trying to cling to life.

He was dead before the ambulance reached us.”

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CD’s, the Real Deal

I’m listening to a few CD’s right now.

Well, not RIGHT this minute, I can’t write and listen to music at the same time, but I’ve been listening to them off and on and may I just say …

Momma likes.

I went out and actually bought the CD’s, I haven’t actually bought CD’s in forever. Why did I buy them? Because I don’t know, I LIKE having a hard copy as opposed to downloading on iTunes – it feels safer to me. Even though it will be a pain to reload the music back onto iTunes if/when my computer needs to be refomatted, I don’t mind because I know I’ll have my music as opposed to thinking I have a copy and I don’t, or thinking I have a copy that works, and I don’t.

Been there, done that.

AND, I like buying CD’s instead of downloading because this way my husband can put the music on his phone, which is not an Apple device and there’s no way to transfer iTunes music (special format, I think it’s MP4?) onto a non-Apple device.

Kind of sucks, actually.

The two CD’s that I bought? Nickelback’s “Dark Horse” and David Cook’s self-titled CD. You remember David Cook, the American Idol winner? Yeah well, he has his own CD out now and though I haven’t heard all of it yet, I like what I hear so far.

You might have heard “Light On” on your radio? That is, IF you listen to the radio anymore? Does anyone listen to the radio anymore? I do, in my car. And sometimes I listen to talk radio at home, but for the most part, I don’t listen to anything because I can’t walk and chew gum at the same time – i.e. be creative and listen to music at the same time.

Anyway, I took the liberty of burning the “Light On” song, so you can listen to it, if you wish.

I also think this song will become a hit. It’s called “Declaration.”

AND, this gets me in the mood to put some Christmas music on here again. Beginning December 1, I’ll start putting some Christmas songs in my posts for you to enjoy.

I heart Christmas music. 😀

Have a great evening, everyone!

Life

Who’s the Forgetful Dork? Oh, That Would Be Me

If there was ever any doubt, there is not now …

I.

AM.

A.

DORK!!

And to add insult to injury, I’m a FORGETFUL dork!

I am quite sure my husband was wondering what in the world was wrong with me yesterday. I couldn’t finish about 80% of my thoughts, I took a wrong turn on our way to dinner last night, I nearly rear-ended someone because I took my wedding ring off and couldn’t remember where I had put it and was totally freaking out when in fact it was in the bathroom, where I put it, because I was running my fingers through my hair to flatten it and take the spiky look out of it …

*deep breath*

And to top it off, to put the cherry on my idiocy, I forgot to put the card back into our camera.

AARGH!

If you’re just surfing by (Hi!), yesterday was my husband and oldest son’s birthdays (yes, they have the same birthday, long story, you can read about it here), and I ordered them a cookie cake, like I do every year.

No biggie, right?

Well, it is if you didn’t have your stupid card in your stupid camera and took a bunch of pictures and was looking forward to posting them to share with ya’ll and you open the little door thingie on your camera and the card is no where to be seen but in fact, is sitting on your desk looking all innocent!

AARGH!

Stupidstupidstupid girl.

ANYWAY, it really wasn’t that big of a deal because the cookie cake? Sucked. Which is pretty sad considering I asked for stick people ….

Oh yeah. The artist at the cookie cake place? Totally screwed up my stick people.

WTH …?!

I asked the gal if she could draw two stick people, a father and son, because it was the husband and son’s birthdays, right? I thought it would be cute/funny to have the taller stick figure with his arm around the smaller son stick figure and maybe put a ball cap on the father figure because you know, stick figures look alike and that way everyone would know who the father was. And I got this totally blank look from the gal and she says to me, with a totally straight face mind you, that she wasn’t sure she could do the arm around the second stick figure. *blinkblink* It’s a stick figure, but you know, whatever.

What I ended up getting was two TINY stick people who were not standing anywhere close to each other and the ball cap? Looked like an upside down saucepan.

AARGH!

Oh well, we got a good laugh out of it and I WOULD show you a picture, but you know, the whole missing camera card thing and I’m a dork and well … moving on.

My parents dropped by (hey mom, if you have a picture of that cookie cake, can you post it to Flickr? Because you know, I’m a dork) bearing gifts. They gave the husband a gift card to a music store (score!) and gave GD a box full of … well, full of 16 individually-wrapped gifts.

It began with the card, that was #1. There was a $2 bill in it. COOL! I didn’t even know those things were still in circulation. Then, he opened the box, which contained 15 more gifts … an apple, a toothbrush holder, a can of Pringles, a package of popcorn, cookies, post-it notes, a school box, some pencils, hot chocolate, a notepad and on and on.

Exciting, right? Ah, but here’s the kicker, my clever little mother inserted a $2.00 bill into each of those gifts so GD had a BLAST first finding, and then pulling those bills out. He ended up walking away from the gift with $32.00 dollars. Cha-ching!

We later met my in-laws at Lambert’s (that’s a restaurant that throws rolls at you and walks around offering all sorts of yummy side dishes – it’s an all you can eat joint and quite popular in these here parts) and stuffed our faces with all sorts of yummy stuff. I took more pictures but you know, I FORGOT TO PUT THE CAMERA CARD IN, so you’ll just have to imagine six people around a table beaming smiles and full tummies.

Since we were so close to my in-laws’ house and we didn’t want them to drive all the way back to our house and then all the way back to their house, we sweet talked them into allowing us to come over with our cookie cake and we stuffed our faces some more.

Incidentally, that’s when I discovered the missing camera card.

I think the guys had a great birthday. Well actually, I know they did because GD told me this morning as I was taking him to school, that it was one of the best and considering that boy has had some really great birthdays (thank you very much), that’s saying a lot.

So mom, I know you’re reading this – THANK YOU for being so creative and for going to all the trouble of wrapping 15 gifts and making a certain 16-year old’s birthday special because I know you had a lot to do with his special memory. And if you have any pictures, I want them! Wah!

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Life

My Birthday Boys

Happy (sweet) 16th birthday, GD!!

Happy birthday, Husband!!

I’ll never forget this day, back in 1992, for as long as I live. I was eight months pregnant and speed walking through the mall trying to find something to give the husband for his birthday the night before. Didn’t we also have fish that night too, honey? It seems, in retrospect, that having fish was a trigger, but I can’t really remember that part very well.

All I know, is that about 3:00 o’clock in the morning, my water broke and I tried to wake the husband up and he rolled over and said to go back to sleep (yes, we’ve since TEASED him about that over the years). I was in denial. Our baby wasn’t supposed to be born at that time, he was supposed to be born in January – he was eight weeks too early.

I finally called the doctor’s office right at 9:00 o’clock because the pain was becoming unbearable. They told me, in no uncertain terms, to get my ass into the hospital NOW.

GD was born just a few hours later.

We still don’t know why I went into labor that day, but I blame myself. I pushed myself to the limits and paid the ultimate price, a premature baby. GD was in the hospital for six weeks (he came home two days after Christmas – that was the worst/best Christmas of my life). GD had a blood infection (because I waited too long to go to the hospital after my water broke) and had to have a blood transfusion.

There are many things I feel guilty about with the birth of my first child. But we prayed to God to give him strength and he did – he’s now the man you see today. (And may I just say, can anyone else see his mustache?? *SQUEE!*)

Nearly everyone we came into contact with November 18, 1992, wished the husband happy birthday and commented on his precious gift. Never let it be said that I don’t give AWESOME birthday gifts.

Happy birthday guys, I love you.

NaNoWriMo

Racing Heart – Third Excerpt

Racing Heart

I’ll be posting excerpts from my 2008 National Novel Writing Month project, Racing Heart, every Tuesday in November. I have comments turned off, not because I don’t want your feedback, but because I can’t afford to think too much about what I’m doing at this point – I hope you understand. 🙂

I didn’t get as much writing in as I would have liked. It’s amazing how much time is needed just to churn out 2,000 words – time I am having difficulty squeezing out of my schedule at the moment. (Notice I didn’t say I didn’t have time, I am simply choosing to spend that time elsewhere, like sleeping off caffeine headaches, for example. Grr).

But I can’t say I’m really surprised. I tend to slack off in week two and especially in week three. Today is my husband and son’s birthdays – after today, I should be back on the writing wagon. Of course, there’s still Christmas shopping to do and considering the boys want things from websites that take a while to ship …. I probably should get started right away.

Enough with the excuses. I’m now officially behind, not by much, but behind. I plan on heading to the library today, pounding out 2,000 words, take my son out of school for lunch (he rejected me – waah!), then back home to clean house for our party tonight. I can do this – I WILL do this.

Thanks for reading.

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Chapter One (continued)
You can read the prologue and the first part of chapter one.

“Your spine was crushed, Alex,” the doctor began before stopping to clear his throat. “I tried to repair as much of the spinal column as I could, but your nerves were simply …” He paused and looked at both Mike and Helen, “well, they were in pretty bad shape. I’m afraid I wasn’t able to save it”

“So,” began her father, his voice sounding faint and far away, “you’re saying this is permanent? He’ll never walk again?”

“Well,” the doctor began, “nothing is really permanent. With lots of hard work and physical therapy, it’s possible that Alex will walk with the aid of crutches …”

“Crutches!” Mike yelled and the entire room started in surprise at the outburst. “You mean, he’ll never race again?”

Julie sputtered a bitter chuckle of surprise at her father’s one-track mind. Did the man NEVER think of anything else?

Her father shot her a look so full of venom and hostility that Julie actually blinked in surprise.

He’s never going to forgive me, she thought.

“Race?” The doctor asked, his expression confused.

“My brother is Alex Meadows, doctor. Three-time Winston Cup winner.”

The doctor flipped back to the front of Alex’s chart and then nodded. “Right. I’m sorry, I didn’t recognize the name as being THE Alex Meadows.” He turned toward Julie’s father. “I’m terribly sorry, Mr. Meadows. This must be doubly devastating for you.”

Mike Meadows studied the doctor for long moments before shifting his eyes to Helen. They stared at each other for several more moments and as if they had communicated telepathically, Mike suddenly turned to the doctor and Helen, releasing Alex’s hand, began gathering up his things.

“Right then, we’re taking him.”

“Uh … what a minute, what?” the doctor sputtered in confusion.

“We’re taking him home.”

“But he’s not ready. He needs more tests and …”

“And we’ll hire a private nurse and he can have all of those tests done at our house.”

“But Mr. Meadows, I don’t think you understand Alex’s condition, it’s serious. Very serious.”

“You think I don’t understand what’s going on here? You think I don’t get the fact that my son, my pride and joy, will never get behind the wheel of a race car again? You think I don’t understand that it’s my daughter’s fault that Alex is lying here right this very minute?”

Helen gasped and Julie swayed from the verbal impact of his resentment towards her.

“I’m sorry dad. I’m really, really sorry. I didn’t see Bobby coming up on the outside. I assumed Alex had plenty of room to pass. I had no idea Bobby would suddenly turn aggressive like that. I didn’t mean …”

Mike held up his hand and Julie stopped talking. “I know what you were doing, Julie, and it wasn’t your job!” he yelled so loudly his cheeks filled with angry color.

“Well, it certainly doesn’t sound boring in here,” a blonde woman said as she breezed in, a large bouquet of colorful flowers clasped between her hands. She placed the vase of flowers on the table next to the bed and leaned in to give Alex a soft, intimate kiss on the lips. “What sort of trouble are you stirring up now, sweetheart?” she purred against Alex’s mouth.

“Hey beautiful, I was wondering if you were going to show up,” said Alex.

“And miss this soap opera? I think not,” the woman said while turning to the trio standing awkwardly off to the side.

“Hello Bridget,” Helen said and moved forward to politely give her a light kiss on the cheek.

“Mrs. Meadows, it’s nice to see you again. Mr. Meadows,” Bridget said while nodding to the older gentleman. “And you must be Julie,” she said while extending her hand.

Julie studied the woman for long seconds before offering her hand. She really didn’t care if she was being rude or not. This woman was being rude by walking into the middle of a family … affair.

She cringed inwardly. She hated to call it a family feud, but it was now apparent that her father was going to hold her responsible for Alex’s accident.

“It’s nice to meet you,” she said. She hadn’t really meant for the tone of her voice to be quite so brusque, but she was irritated, worried and just a little scared that her rocky relationship with her father, the relationship she had been working for her entire life to strengthen, was indeed over before it really began.

A nurse walked into the room and then stopped abruptly. “There are way too many people in this room.” She nodded toward Helen. “Someone needs to leave. There should only be two other people in this room besides the patient and the doctor.

“Julie was just leaving,” Mike Meadows growled out.

“Dad,” Alex said. “I need to talk to Julie. Can you give us a few minutes, please?”

“I don’t think that’s a good idea, Alex,” said Mike.

“Yeah, I might go nuts and slip you some poison in your IV or something,” Julie said bitterly.

“Oh for Christ’s sake!” Mike yelled.

Helen moved toward her husband and taking him by the arm, began leading him to the door. “Alright honey,” she crooned, “let’s go get some coffee. It’s been a long night and we still need to figure out how we’re going to get Alex out of here.”

The couple passed by Julie as they were exiting the room.

“Thanks mom,” Julie said quietly.

Helen gave her a quick, sad smile. Mike pointedly ignored her.

“Right,” said the doctor and hooked Alex’s chart at the foot of his bed. “I’ll be back later to check on you. If you need anything …”

Alex merely nodded and the room remained quiet until both the doctor and nurse left.

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Please don’t hate me.

The husband and GD’s birthdays are tomorrow – as in, on the same day (the stinker was impatient and couldn’t WAIT to be born – eight weeks early! Happy birthday, hubby!). As you can imagine, November 18th has worked out to be one of the busiest days of the year for me.

But no fear. I just finished my errands, made sure they both had something to open tomorrow, ordered their cookie cake (I think it’s going to be really cute this year), and we have plans to eat at Lambert’s for dinner tomorrow night.

I plan on picking GD up from school tomorrow and taking him out to lunch and the husband? Is scheduled to have a cavity drilled out (poor guy. *sad face*).

I was pretty stressed this morning, but now? Smooth as butta. Things are under control. Now if I could only focus on my NaNoWriMo project … it’s hard to be creative when all you want to do is PAR-TAY!

Conga line, everyone!