Day: December 13, 2008

You know what’s great about blogging?

You can password-protect posts.

Whenever I start feeling burned out on blogging (and who wouldn’t posting two/three times a day! And you only THOUGHT you could shut me up! HA!), I write a password-protected post.

My audience shifts. I’m no longer writing to faceless friends, but to my family, to people who know me in real life. I use real names, I express real emotions and I’m free to write whatever the hell I want to write without fear of repercussions.

And it gives me a chance to slice open my heart and let it bleed. It’s messy but oh so therapeutic.

Take yesterday for example. I felt so b*tchy, so aggressive, so IMPATIENT. I realize some of this has to do with hormones but some of it … I don’t know, I felt like a tea kettle that had been left to boil for too long. I just felt tense and on edge.

So, I did what I always do – I exercised, hard. My frustrations oozed out of my pores and it felt good, really, really good.

And I watched “The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants” on the treadmill.

It wasn’t the story, per se, that had me bawling my eyes out, but the friendship factor. I’ve never had that. And will likely never have that closeness with another female. I don’t know. I’m different – females GRATE on my nerves for some reason.

But I’m not here to analyze why I think I’m like that – I wrote that in my password-protected post. I’m just here to say that ever since I’ve been writing these private posts? I just FEEL so much better. I feel … more exposed, in a secret sort of way.

I know it doesn’t make sense. But that’s about the only way I know how to explain it at this point.

I’m not stifled, I don’t feel suffocated, I can just BE me.

So, if you’re feeling the blogging-blues, write a private post. Say what you WANT to say as opposed to what you THINK others want you to say. It’s cathartic.

And I’m betting it helps you get over the blogging-blues.