Work Stuff

Living with COVID

So how is work going?

Glad you asked. I mean, it’s still the same shit show, but I’m glad you asked.

I’m writing about this primarily because I don’t want to forget this time period because I firmly believe we’re living history, (more so than usual), and future generations will look back on this time period, shake their heads and say, “what a bunch of fearful morons.” If you’re all for COVID vaccines, boosters, (1 through … ?), vaccine passports, magnetic chips implanted in your skin,  (mark my words, that’s coming – or is it already here?), do not read any further. It will just piss you off.

However, if you’re curious to hear what the “other” side thinks and can absorb the information without the top of your head blowing off, by all means, read on, my friend. I don’t want angry comments, emails, looks or cold shoulders, either virtually, or in real life, because I gave you fair warning. I would hope you’re capable of digesting information, where ever that information comes from, and making up your own mind. 

I’m simply sharing my thoughts, feelings and experiences as I see them through my unique lens. 

Now that my disclaimer is out of the way …

For those just tuning in, I opted out of the COVID vaccine. I am one of those *GASP* unvaccinated people. Or, as I like to affectionately call myself, a “pure blood.” (I saw someone label the “unvaccinated” this on Twitter and I like it – I am hence known as a “pure blood”).

Does this mean I’m anti-vaccine? Does this mean I’m a racist? A bigot? A white Supremist? Or any other labels the crazed, zombie-like pro-COVID vax people like to label people who disagree with them?

Of course not. It simply means what it means – I’m against THIS particular vaccine. I have questions and nothing makes sense. And the more Big Tech squashes the ability to TALK about it, the more suspicious and the more determined I am to NOT COMPLY.

And if I didn’t work where I work, I wouldn’t even think about COVID unless I was out in public and saw the occasional fearful sap still wearing a mask, but alas, I work in healthcare …

NEED I SAY MORE?!

Okay, I’ll say more. Since I work as a medical assistant in neurosurgery, I am quite literally surrounded by COVID every minute of every work day. And I get it, it’s healthcare and there are people in the hospital with COVID, though the numbers and statistics are a little blurry as it’s never disclosed the percentage of people that were admitted with COVID and the number of patients that were admitted for something else but tested positive for COVID, but numbers, statistics, and common sense do not matter nowadays. It’s all about stoking the fear and keeping this narrative going at all costs.

How and why am I still there?

Good question. I honestly don’t know. To catch you up, to give you the cliff notes version, the hospital mandated the vaccine. I turned in a religious exemption, was denied, turned my resignation in, then found out a co-worker had her religious exemption approved, re-worded my exemption request and was approved.

But a condition of them accepting my religious exemption, I have to take a test every week until … infinity, I guess.

Luckily, it’s a sputum test, not a Qtip up the nose test. And I’ve been doing this since November 1st. If I tested positive, I would be out for two weeks before I was permitted to return to to work.

Then the CDC shortened the requirements to seven days, and now it’s down to five days out. If I’m out, I have to use my vacation pay. *shrug* Okay, fine.

So far, so good. I haven’t tested positive. Things are good-ish. Or as good-ish as could be considering I’m one of two people in the entire clinic that feels pretty strongly against the COVID vaccine, but whatever, conversations pop up, I walk away.

Not that big of a deal.

And then, along comes Omicron. The little wannabe virus that people tried very hard to make into Delta 2.0. Thankfully, it wasn’t (isn’t) as deadly as it’s cousin mutation. But you know, we can’t be thankful for small reprieves because those don’t fit the narrative and negates Biden’s desperate attempt to bully people into getting the vaccine. Sure, Omicron is contagious, even more so than Delta, but it’s only as severe as a bad cold if someone catches it.

For most people, there are always exceptions, of course,

I’m thoroughly convinced, though don’t have anything to back this up, that I had COVID in April 2021. I lost my sense of taste/smell for two weeks and felt like warm death. It could have been a sinus infection and I thought it might have been at the time and asked Dr. M’s mid-level to call me in some antibiotics, which she was kind enough to do, and I felt better almost immediately. I will, at some point, get my antibodies tested because I want to know FOR SURE if that’s the case.

But I think it might have happened and I think I have natural immunity. Nearly everyone around me at work has tested positive for the Omicron variant, or COVID, in the past two weeks. Everyone completely freaked out and we had a lot of people out sick, though some people were asymptomatic.

I was fully expecting to test positive last week as I did feel poopy and I was around a lot of people who tested positive, but my test came back negative.

I was a little bummed, not gonna lie. I was looking forward to being off work for a bit. And who knows what this week’s test will show, but for now, I seem to be in the clear.

I feel like I’m spinning a Roulette wheel every week … round and round she goes, where she stops, no one knows! It’s exhausting and quite frankly, I’m over it and could give two shits any more. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn’t, then it doesn’t. My life will go on regardless of mass hysteria that I’m surrounded with every day.

And speaking of hysteria, we have to start wearing a special mask next week. It’s thicker and I’m REALLY looking forward to not breathing for a while. Even more so than now. We’ve been wearing masks everyday since April (?), May (?) of 2020, when this nightmare started, but we could wear cloth masks or medical-grade masks that were at least comfortable enough to breathe in, but now, we have to wear something the thickness of a Kotex maxi pad.

Sexy.

I’ve checked out. I’m not invested in this “pandemic” any more. I think the worse is over and the variants will never go away. We must learn to live with it. I’m just patiently waiting for the government and the medical community to finally realize it.

I wouldn’t say I don’t care about my job anymore but I definitely care LESS. I’m now a passive observer – I’m on the outside, looking into a big picture window dispassionately watching the chaos inside. I already feel like we, as in the human race, have lost a few years to this parasite, I refuse to lose any more time because of it. Life is too short to begin with, I refuse to participate any longer.

What does that mean, exactly? I’m not sure, to be honest. I’m keeping my options open. I’m biding my time, I suppose, just waiting to see how this madness shakes out.

I will say, I’m very encouraged to hear about the Supreme Court upholding the Constitution and striking down the mandate for employers. It was really the only conclusion they could have come up with and thank God for the Constitution – places like Canada and Australia don’t have a Constitution and look what sort of shape they’re in.

So, at least I won’t have to worry about addressing the vaccine topic with another employer and any employer that decides to go ahead and mandate it anyway, (I’m looking at you Starbucks – tyrannical weirdos), wouldn’t be someplace I would want to work, or shop, anyway.

I feel like I’m walking a tightrope and any wrong move will cause me to fall off into an unknown abyss. It’s not exactly a pleasant experience, or a great place to be right now.

Distancing myself from this madness has been difficult, but it’s also been … therapeutic. I look around and I feel sorry for people who continue to listen to the propaganda and continue to put their trust in people, or organizations, that could care less about them. This whole pandemic, after information started coming in and it was apparent that the government and Big Pharma were pushing an agenda, has been nothing but an attempt to control people and make massive amounts of money – both by Mr. Science himself, aka Dr. Fauci, and Congress.

If that’s not enough to convince you that something fishy is going on, just look around you. People that are getting this Omicron variant are both vaccinated, and unvaccinated. This even includes people that have been boosted.

Wait a minute, I thought the vaccines were designed to prevent you from getting sick?

No? Oh right, they are supposed to prevent you from being REALLY sick and having to go into the hospital.

But the booster protects you, right?

Well. Sort of. They may protect you for about ten weeks.

These vaccines and boosters that the government and the healthcare industry tout as IMPORTANT and VITAL to protecting you from COVID are a short-term band aid, apparently. Because they appear to lose their effectiveness after so many weeks and then a new variant comes out and OOPS, the vaccines are now not effective at all but never fear! We have a booster that will do the job – maybe – for a short time, at least.

It’s madness. Sheer madness that we keep falling for this rhetoric. And what’s even more maddening is that we can’t even TALK about prophylactics, such as alternative medications or treatments that can help prevent serious illness, or focus on living and choosing more healthy choices – getting fresh air, taking vitamin D and Zinc supplements, to name a few alternatives.

Nope. You can’t even MENTION these things without people rolling their eyes and labeling the people wanting to talk about these options as “conspiracy theorists.”

Hate to break it to you folks, but the “conspiracy theorists?” Have been right so far. Maybe it’s time to take off the blinders and take a good, honest look at the bigger picture here – we’re being lied to.

COVID is real, folks, I’m not disputing that. What I am disputing is the narrative surrounding it. It has gotten so convoluted and complicated that people don’t know what to believe anymore. And since most people have not been taught to critically think for themselves and do not possess common sense – there are a lot of confused people out there.

My advice? Get your news from multiple sources. Both for and against the narrative. Look around. Pay attention. What do your eyes tell you? What is happening in your area? Take everything you see and hear with a grain of salt and understand that everyone, EVERYONE, has an agenda or biases.

Yes. Even me.

Here is a good summary of what we’ve been experiencing thus far with Omicron. I’m not the biggest fan of ZDoggMD – he’s alt middle-ish – but he does a fairly good job of trying to stay as neutral as he can in explaining the crap information we’re being fed.

Key points:

  1. Hospitalizations vs cases vs deaths – Omicron is more contagious but it’s not as deadly than Delta. This is good news! This would be the variant you would want to get to build immunity. There are many cases, but very few deaths – again – GOOD NEWS! I wish the media would focus on that instead of cases implying that equates death – it does not. However, as I mentioned people are not critically thinking about this information, they are simply reacting to the media’s message.
  2. It’s refreshing to hear him even TALKING about natural immunity. This is a topic that needs to be talked about more – it’s NOT the jab and nothing else.
  3. Love how he describes masking and the temperature “guns” theater. Because that’s what it is, folks, theater. It’s primary function is to make people feel like they are doing SOMETHING when in actuality, there is very little we can do other than try and stay as healthy as we can, washing our hands, not touching our faces until we wash our hands, avoid touching high traffic areas – elevators buttons, door handles, stay away from people who are coughing, eat better, get more sleep, take vitamins and supplements. But we can’t talk about that stuff, right?
  4. Hospitals filling up this time of year. Yes, he’s absolutely right. Hospitals traditionally fill up during the cold/flu season. I would also be interested in knowing the number of influenza cases, on average, that are hospitalized each year. COVID comes around and suddenly influenza disappears? Hardly, and yet, we can’t talk about that. Why?? Also – hospitals are not filling up because they don’t have beds, they are filling up because they don’t have the STAFF to take care of those beds. And why don’t they have the staff? Because the asswipes fired a lot of people by taking their bodily autonomy away. Genius move, idiots.
  5. “We’re not testing everyone for what genotype they have.” Which affirms what I’ve always said all along – how do they KNOW that you have Delta or Omicron if they’re not testing for that specific strain? Which, I suppose doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things, you tested positive for a COVID strain, but knowing for certain which strain someone has would definitely change the numbers and like he said, knowing which strain someone has would tell doctors what kind of treatment would work best as opposed to just throwing everything at the wall and hoping something sticks.
  6. Mass psychosis formation – absolutely, 100% this is happening. People are being told what to do and they are going along with it because it’s easier to do so. It’s MUCH harder to resist that “norm” and say, “this is not right for me, thanks.” I know this firsthand. However, ZDogg is right again – this mass psychosis goes both ways and even if you disagree with the majority, it doesn’t mean YOU’RE right either. That’s why it’s so important to get both sides of the story – get your information from multiple sources, not just the side you support, to avoid falling into this trap yourself. Get all the information, analyze this information, then make the best decision for your and your family. And then everyone else? BUTT OUT. It’s none of your business what someone else does, or doesn’t do. If you’re that worried, again, make adjustments. Buy N95 masks, get your tenth booster, stay home and cower in fear. You do you, I’ll do me. Easy.
  7. Adverse reactions to the vaccine are not happening … in the San Francisco Bay area. That’s the key here, ZDogg. This does not mean this stuff is not happening elsewhere and it doesn’t mean it doesn’t happen at all. It simply means you’re not hearing about it, personally. And you have to wonder, the cases you are hearing about, are they because of COVID or was something else happening? And how many cases are we NOT hearing about? The bigger concern, is that we’re not talking about it!! That we’re not ALLOWED to talk about it because any time you start to question, or have some sort of conversation about it, Big Tech kicks you off and censors you. Hell, even Biden appealed to Big Tech the other day about doing a better job of squashing “misinformation.” Which loosely translates to – information that harms the overall narrative. It’s happening and it’s real.
  8. Also – the fact that all of this is happening makes me suspicious – what is really going on here? I think these vaccine passports are about much more than COVID. It’s a way to track you and ultimately control what you can, and cannot do. Go ahead, roll your eyes – I hope I’m wrong, but what if I’m not?
  9. BE IN THE BEST POSSIBLE SHAPE YOU CAN BE FOR YOUR DATE WITH OMICRON. Amen. I 100% agree. Get it. Move on.

So, with all of that said, here are some sites I get my news if you’re looking for some alternative news. If you’re still watching CNN, MSNBC, etc., the “traditional” news sources, okay, but consider ALSO getting your news from other sources, too. What are you missing? What is not being said? What is being said too much?

WND.com
News Coup (Alternative to Drudge Report)
The Daily Wire
Louder with Crowder
You Are Here
Gab

I’m also on Twitter a lot. I know, Twitter is the devil, but again, I’m not interested in hanging out with like-minded people, I want to know what people who don’t think like me are thinking. It’s important.

And that’s my life right now. I never know what is going to happen week by week and I’ve come to be okay with that. What choice do I have? I’m hoping the craziness is about over, but maybe not. And if not, then I’ll re-assess my life, again. Because I don’t want o spend my last working years, (I only have about nine working years left), having to stress, or fight, for my right to do what I want with my own body.

I hope you’re all doing well and I hope your working life will get better now that the Supreme Court blocked Biden’s stupid mandates, unless you’re in healthcare, like I am and if that’s the case, do what is right for you and your family. That’s all you can do and people can either take it, or not.

Be healthy, friends.

Day-By-Day

Thankful The World Has Stopped Spinning

Hi.

So. We left off where I was experiencing vertigo, couldn’t walk straight, threw up not only everything in my stomach but I’m pretty sure there were bits of liver in my gunk, fell asleep and snored in front of the doctor I work for and me thinking I was never going to be normal again.

I’m happy to say, I’m normal again.

Or, whatever that means to you and however that defines me.

After that crazy episode, which lasted 20 hours straight and then I had another 15 hours of dizziness one day later, I’m happy to say I haven’t experienced any more vertigo, but I have had some dizzy spells. 

Actually, more like wooziness. Like I’m standing there and things just sort of start getting ..swimmey. Wavy. Distorted. It was very disorientating but it wasn’t severe enough for me to get nauseous and thankfully, it would only last about ten seconds before going away. I had quite a few woozy spells on Thanksgiving day, one after the other, to the point where I felt like we were going to have to leave dinner because it was making me feel sick, but again, luckily, after about thirty minutes, they didn’t go away but they weren’t happening as often and I started to feel better. 

But after Thanksgiving, I stopped having the woozy spells. I didn’t really notice I wasn’t experiencing the dizzy spells anymore for several days and then it was like, “Hey! I feel normal again!” And I haven’t had any more episodes since. I don’t know what I did, or what I didn’t do, but I’ll take it. I wouldn’t wish that experience on anyone. 

I will say though, I have been careful with my head movements. I’m not living like a robot, but I definitely don’t bend over and blow dry my hair anymore as I’m afraid when I come back up, I’ll have a vertigo episode. Maybe I’m being overly cautious, but if that is what it takes NOT to experience that Funhouse Hell again, I’ll take it. 

I put off seeing a doctor for a while. Again, I don’t have a primary care physician (PCP) and I really needed to become established with someone because you may be healthy, and that’s great, but if something happens, a PCP is a heck of a lot cheaper than Urgent Care or the ER. 

So I bit the bullet and went to see someone. It was a nurse practitioner actually, not a doctor, but that’s okay. I really only wanted two things from seeing someone:

  1. A referral to Ear, Nose, Throat. (Because it’s a specialty and usually requires a referral to see someone) and
  2. Do a full lab work up to make sure my levels were good and my thyroid was working correctly.

To begin the appointment, I told her my vertigo experience. I didn’t give her as much detail as I gave you guys, but rather, the cliff notes version. I explained that it was my one and only, (God willing), experience and I have no idea what happened and I pray it never happens again. Shen then proceeded to look in my ears. 

She couldn’t even see into my left ear canal. She said it was super small and she couldn’t see anything. 

She then looked in my right ear. And though I have wax build up, (because you couldn’t PAY me to stick a Q-tip in my ear at this point in time because I’m afraid I’ll trigger something or knock something loose – also, you’re not supposed to clean your ear like that), it wasn’t as much as she would have thought given my experience. 

She then told me that she would refer me to Ear, Nose and Throat (ENT) doctor, (YESSSS, goal #1 accomplished) and that she wanted to do a blood draw and run some labs to check my thyroid and various other levels. (YESSSS, goal #2 accomplished). 

She then said she wanted to make another appointment for me to come back for a full physical, including, but not limited to, a breast exam and paps smear. 

*sound of screeching tires*

Um, no.

I get why she wanted to do that. I’m menopausal and I’ve never seen a family doctor so she needed a base line, but erhm, no. But I made an appointment, and then I promptly rescheduled it out a few months because … UGH, NO.

The physical is now in February – the end of February. I may go … (but probably not).

I finally touched base with ENT. I’m scheduled to see them the first part of February. Yes. I could have gotten in sooner but … UGH. I loathe being messed with, whether that’s getting my hair done, my teeth worked on, or my body looked at. I. HATE. IT. But I know I need to get this checked out if for no other reason than to see what is going on with my inner ears and how I can hopefully prevent this vertigo thing from happening again. 

And that  brings you up-to-date on the vertigo thing. Thankfully, I haven’t have any issues with dizziness since Thanksgiving and everything is looking good. I’m still very aware of the way I position my body and not bending over or hanging my head down. And I think that helps. I hope it helps. At any rate, I’m not taking any chances on triggering another “attack.” 

I hope your 2022 is going well so far and that you’re staying healthy. We have a lot of people out sick at work and of course the hospital is freaking out about it because that’s what we do with this COVID nightmare, we over react. 

More on that soon. 

Book Corner

Best/Least Liked Books of 2021

Did you make your reading goal for 2021? I did. I read 55 books and plan on reading another 55 books this year. (You can follow me on Goodreads here). I can handle one book per week, right? (I usually read a lot more on vacations so that’s why my goal is 55 books, not 52).

Below is a list of my five-star books for this year. Out of 55 books, I ranked 20 of them five stars. I don’t rank books five stars very often but when I do, it’s because:

  1. The story was excellent
  2. The story pulled some sort of emotion out of me
  3. It left a lasting impression

Most of the books I read were four-star books, which is good, and I still recommend them if you want to check out my list, but for whatever reasons, they weren’t “worthy”, at least in my opinion, of five stars.

Obviously, you’re free to think whatever you like.

I also included my three-star, or lower books, as well. Actually, I don’t think I ranked anything lower than three stars this year. These books were okay – I didn’t hate them but I certainly didn’t love them, either.

Here is a list of my five-star books first:

I discovered Andrew Mayne this year. And as you can see from the list, I rated quite a few of his books five stars. I enjoy his humor and his non-stop action without sacrificing character development. Could he develop his characters more deeply? Yes. But then that would take away from the made-dash around the plotline that I’ve come to appreciate from him and I I quite enjoy his writing style. I also really love how he puts his characters in seemingly impossible situations and then finds creative ways to get them out of said impossible situation. A great example of that is Orbital and Station Breaker. It almost makes you dizzy how crazy fast the plot goes in those books but they are highly entertaining and a few parts actually made me laugh out loud – recommend.

I’ve also read quite a few Loreth Anne White and I don’t recall not liking any of her books so far. Her mysteries are quite compelling and she keeps me guessing until the end, and sometimes beyond.

LOVE Colleen Hoover. Her books pull a lot of emotion out of me and I’m often squinting to read through the tears in my eyes. She has a talent for really making readers care about her characters, also recommend.

Mary Stone is also another author that consistently churns out really solid mysteries and I enjoy her work a lot, too.

Mariana Zapata – *sigh* – her work makes me swoon. She is probably one of my all-time favorite authors. Her slow burn romance, and her ability to insert real-life situations, are deeply satisfying and she spends a lot of time showing readers who her characters are so that by the end of her stories, you can’t help but be deeply invested in what happens to them. I still think of “The Wall of Winnipeg and Me” to this day. HIGHLY RECOMMEND.

Here is a list of my three-star books:

None of these books were bad, they just weren’t my cup of tea. I wouldn’t necessarily recommend them, but reading them wouldn’t be a waste of your time, either.

I don’t know if you ever watch BookTubers on YouTube, but I really dig Chandler Ainsley’s channel. She is sharp and articulate in her book reviews and I like the quickness that she covers each story. I would really like to try something similar. So here is what I’m going to try this year:

I’ve started a reading journal. And in this reading journal, I’m jotting down thoughts about books I’m reading – impressions, character notes, story points, etc. and I am going film myself talking about these various books throughout the month, piece them together and post a video at the end of the month of my impressions of these stories. I’m going to keep it super chill, meaning, you’ll see me dressed up, dressed down, in my car, on my couch, in my office, wherever the mood strikes because it’s about the amazing stories that I read, not whether I look good or am wearing lipstick.

Anyway. I thought it would be fun to record my thoughts thinking it would make it easier for me to remember the books at the end of the month and choose my favorite book each month because my goal is to pick my favorite book for 2022.

Have a comment? Join me at my Goodreads Dear Reader Group. I would love to hear your thoughts!

Reflections

December 2021 Reflections

(My Reflections posts are more stream-of-consciousness kind of posts so I apologize up front if some of what you read doesn’t make sense. But this is me we’re talking about here so … are you really surprised?)

Dec 1: Mood – Meh (Thought I would add my mood for the day)

And just like that, it’s December – 2021 is nearly over!! I’m sorry … WHAT?!?

I know I’ve said this before, but it bears repeating – how does time go so fast? How can we slow this down? I swear, we will blink a few times and we’ll be right back here, looking at another picture of Santa Claus and thinking, “where did 2022 go?!??”

As usual, I’m writing this reflections post at the END of the month but never fear! I did a bang-up job of keeping up with my journal this month so I’ll elaborate on my thoughts from that.

You’re welcome. I know you were worried for a minute.

Still training the new girl at work. Actually, one of the new girls, we have two. We are now fully staffed with medical assistants, so, that’s good. Now, if we can only find three more nurses, we’ll be set. At least, until the next upheaval because let’s be honest, no one is really fully staffed for very long because … life, am I right? She’s pretty sharp and I think she’s going to work out nicely for Dr. S.’s team. Not gonna lie, training DRAINS me but we can’t expect the new people to do well if we don’t invest some time in their training, right? I’m anticipating her being on her own by Christmas.

We talked about a team activity to celebrate Christmas today. We all went to an Escape Room last January, (we just can’t coordinate our schedules in December, everyone is too busy) and I think it would be fun to go H’s new house and have a murder mystery dinner. We could dress up, assume a character and find out who the murderer is! I know, this suggestion is really odd coming from me considering I HATE dressing up, but I think it would be fun, interesting and full of laughs. Someone on the team suggested we go someplace and shoot guns, which, honestly, I’m down for. I wouldn’t mind learning how to shoot a gun. Kevin and I talk about taking lessons all the time. Also, ax throwing – which – I’ll be honest, I don’t know if I’m strong enough for that one and I keep imagining someone getting an ax stuck in their arm. I don’t know, we’ll see what we come up with.

Dec 2: Mood – Grateful to feel normal

Did my wellness labs today. We weigh, have blood drawn and have our blood pressure taken every year to assess how healthy we are. We do this so that we get stickers in January that we put on our badges and we get 35% off cafeteria food. Which is already expensive and really comes in handy, to be honest. My labs were perfect. All within normal ranges. I was very pleased by my numbers. My A1C was a little high but I cheated that morning and had some coffee with some creamer instead of fasting like I was supposed to. Oops.

I also saw a nurse practitioner today to establish care with a primary care provider. Believe it or not, I don’t have a doctor. I’ve never had a primary doctor, I’ve never had the need for one. I’m very healthy and work to stay that way. The biggest reason I went to see her was for a referral to an Ear, Nose, and Throat doctor to try and address the Vertigo I had back in late October. And they drew more blood to do a full panel on me, test my thyroid function, etc. and I’m happy to say, even the extended labs came back all normal. Again, I was very proud of myself. The NP wanted me to come back and get a full physical, breast exam, pap smear, which I made an appointment for, but I have no intention of keeping it, I will be canceling it soon. Maybe I’ll reschedule – I don’t know. Why go looking for problems? Though I understand it’s good to have a baseline, I’m not having any issues at this time so it just feels … intrusive. I don’t know. I’ll think about it some more.

Super stressful day today. I was busy training, trying to get some stuff done for Dr. M and get his clinic ready for the next Monday while packing stuff up to take to Dr. S’s Harrison clinic tomorrow. I know my blood pressure was up, (and it was a little high at the doctor’s office). This was one of those days I end up asking myself, “WHY AM I DOING KILLING MYSELF FOR THIS JOB? WHY??”

Dec 3: Relieved

Went to Harrison AR with team S today. It was the easiest outlying clinic I’ve ever worked. In fact, I didn’t even work it, E did. And she did great. She really rocked it. I was available for questions, which she had very few. I actually drove myself to Harrison, the team went together in the company SUV. I drove myself because I knew it would be a cramped ride and I get car sick and I wanted to give E time to bond with Dr. S’s nurse, so I drove. And it was pretty fantastic. It was relaxing and it was an easy drive. I got there before the team and set things up so they were ready to go when they walked in the door. I’m hoping this was my last time going to an outlying clinic. The clinic we used to go to with Dr. M’s team, our lease expired and the facility didn’t renew it so we don’t have an outlying clinic to do now. DARN! (Totally being sarcastic in case you didn’t pick up on that). Today more than made up for the very stressful day I had yesterday. Thank God.

Dec 4: Relaxed

Spent some time setting up my new Garmin Venu SQ today. It looks a lot like an Apple watch. I like the square face. I also ordered some replacement bands because I get bored wearing the same thing over and over again. The band is super easy to change, pretty happy about that. I think I have too many settings because it seems like the battery is really draining fast. I’ll have to play around with it some more. But I dig the fitness watches because I like to keep track of my sleep patterns and steps. Also, I earn points that goes into a health account at work so if I rack up a medical bill, I can apply the “money” I’ve earned in my account to help pay for it. Win, win situation.

We went to Hobby Lobby and bought a really cool picture to put into the camper.

For those of you catching up – Kevin bought a cargo trailer and converted it into a comfortable camper for us. Since it doesn’t look like we’ll be going on cruises any time in the future, (because we refuse to inject ourselves with an experimental mystery that no one knows the long-term repercussions for a virus that has a 99% recovery rate for most people – but I digress), we decided camping would be the next best thing because we refuse to live our lives cooped up at home all the time. I promise! We’ll post an updated video on the camper this spring when we dig it out and start using it again. We’re loving it so far and it’s been really comfortable to use. Of course, we have some more tweaking to do, but i’ts been fun to use so far and we’ll only get better the more we use it. Stay tune for more adventures in 2022!

We went to a local hamburger joint for dinner and we had to wait quite a while for our food. But it’s okay, we all have to be patient right now because so many places are short staffed because of Biden’s stupid vaccine mandates for private businesses. Let’s go Brandon! The workers were stressed and I made sure to say loudly enough for the disgruntled near me to hear, “You guys are doing great! We appreciate you. Hang in there!”

Dec 5: Disappointed

Heard from my brother today – his family will not be joining us for Christmas because my family, and mom and dad, aren’t vaccinated. I wasn’t terribly surprised to hear this, but I was very disappointed. It’s hard for me to understand how people can be so scared of a disease that isn’t that bad for most people and yet be so willing to split a family up over. Especially since my brother and his family are vaccinated. Aren’t they protected? Why are they so scared? This whole topic is so backwards to me. And don’t think you’re protecting us with this decision, we’re fine being around people – we accept whatever consequences come from that decision. But whatever, man. You do you, bro.

Dec 9: Angry

I will never understand the need to fix something that is not broken. Case in point – there is one nurse at work needs to sit somewhere quiet so that she can focus and get her work done. I totally get that, I’m the same way. But in order to make this one nurse happy, instead of moving her desk to a more quiet office, management feels the need to move EVERYONE, separating the MA’s from their nurses, putting all the MA’s together and putting the nurses together(ish – they are spread out all over the clinic), thereby disrupting an otherwise good system that worked for most of the teams, (expect for the nurse that is unhappy). So now, instead of one unhappy nurse that you could have moved someplace else, you have a whole clinic that has been disrupted and not terribly happy with their new seating arrangements. And if that wasn’t bad enough. there aren’t enough desks to house all of the MA’s so I have to share my desk with E, (who has opposite clinic days than I do) so in essence, I don’t have a desk anymore. Did it have to be this way? Nope, it could have been handled differently but as usual, management won’t deal with a sole individual that is having trouble, or not doing her job, but instead, has to make blanket statements and policies that affect everyone and didn’t need to be changed to begin with because it worked for most people.

I had two choices – I could sit in a large room with six MA’s, or share my spot with E. I knew there was no way in hell I could sit in a large room with six other MA’s, all talking at once, all being loud, goofing off, without getting fired because I know me, that situation would make me lose my cool and I would inevitably tell someone to shut up, or get back to work, and then I would be fired. So I opted to share my desk because it was the lesser evil of the two choices. Am I happy about it? Nope. Not at all. But hey, at least that one nurse is happy now.

AARGH.

We had a group of parents protesting outside a local middle school today. The school district is continuing to mandate masks even though the state of Missouri was sued and it was determined that the local health department didn’t have the authority to make those mandates. It was nice to see people actually STANDING up for a change. That’s been my biggest beef with this whole COVID scamdemic – the fact that people didn’t question why they were being forced to wear masks, social distance, etc – everyone just blindly went along with whatever was suggested like mindless sheeple. So gross and disturbing to me. At least these parents had the balls to finally stand up and say ENOUGH.

Dec 13: Disgusted

Covering four clinics this week – sucks.

Dec 17: Confident

Worked Dr. W’s clinic today. One of the patients came in with oxygen and was clearly struggling to breathe. Took his blood pressure and it was super high, like stroke level. The nurse told him he needed to go to the ER, especially given his heart failure history, which only served to upset him further. I was walking down the hallway when I encountered both him and his son. I leaned over and very softly calmed him down. I explained that though he may have back pain, he could live with that, he couldn’t live without a heart. I encouraged him to get checked out because we didn’t want anything to happen to him. His son had to turn his oxygen up all the way and to constant because he was struggling so much. I don’t know what happened to the patient, I hope he’s okay, but it’s important to treat high blood pressure seriously – it could be deadly if left untreated.

Dec 18: Happy

Mom/dad came over for our Christmas party today. Small group, just us and them. But it was fun and we didn’t have to compete with anyone to have a conversation, so that was nice. We had sub sandwiches for lunch and mom spent three days in the kitchen making all sorts of goodies for us. (My favorite being the fudge – it’s the only time of year I eat fudge and this year mom made cinnamon fudge! Yum!). In addition to bringing over all sorts of yummy sweets over, mom brought over a saran wrapped ball. We passed the ball around and the person with the ball had to unwrap it and whatever fell out, that person got to keep. In the meantime, the person next to them is rolling dice and if that person gets a pair, then the person with the ball has to stop unwrapping and hand the ball to the next person. Mom bought a bunch of Dollar store items and put them in the ball. It was a really fun game. Brandon was the last person to unwrap the ball and he got a $20 bill! Here’s a video snippet:

We then played “Say Anything,” another really fun game where you ask questions and then you write down what you think the person asking the question would say. It could be a serious answer or something totally outrageous and that was also a lot of fun – a lot of laughs. Our boys came up with some really funny answers. Highly recommend if you’re looking for an easy, group game suitable for all ages. Mom makes us ornaments every year and every year, she will hang the ornaments in the Christmas tree and we have to find the ornaments with our name on it. She attaches some money to the ornaments and that is my parents’ gift to us. These are the ornaments this year:

Mom didn’t make the little tin camper, I just threw that in because I’m sort of obsessed with it right now. We found it at Hobby Lobby. (Or was it Wal-Mart?)

It was a fun day. We missed the rest of the family and maybe we can get together next year but like I said, we are going to continue living our lives – I guess people can come along if they so choose.

Dec 19: Tired

We went over to Kevin’s parents’ house today for our Christmas party. Again, it was super small and just us and his parents. Though there are a few kids that feel strongly about the vaccine, the biggest reason we didn’t all get together was because most of the kids were arriving at different times and Kevin’s parents’ house is not that big so there wouldn’t have been room to house everyone anyway. Kevin’s mom made us lasagna and we had pizza, too. After being completely stuffed, we played The Left/Right game. Here’s how it works. You grab a gift from a gift pile. One person reads a story and every time you hear left or right, you pass it either left or right to the person next to you. Once the story is completed, then you keep the gift you end up with. Here’s a snippet:

 

It’s sad when your holidays start changing but when your family grows up and starts having families of their own and we get too big to house everyone, you have to be flexible.

It was a fun weekend, but I was pretty pooped out by the time it was over.

Dec 21: Poopy

I felt pretty poopy today at work. I was worried that I had a cold, or God forbid, COVID, so I was pretty nervous taking my weekly COVID test. I have to take a weekly test because I filed a religious exemption against taking the vaccine and getting tested is part of my deal with my employer. It’s a spit test, I don’t have to stick a Q-tip up my nose, thankfully, but it’s still a pain in the ass to do every week.

Luckily, it came back negative. I wasn’t too worried that it would be COVID, because again, I’m not scared of the disease and I’m pretty sure I had COVID in April 2021 so I’m betting I have natural immunity, but I didn’t know how long I would have to be off work and I didn’t want to inconvenience my co-workers if that happened.

Dec 23: Impatient

UGH. The last day of work before a holiday is BRUTAL. It goes so slow and you just end up watching the clock, which moves slower than you’ve ever noticed before. I was practically crawling up the walls before the day was over, I was so anxious to GET OUT.

Dec 24: Happy

Boys came over about 2:00 PM. We played a new game I bought with the Barnes and Noble gift card my work peeps gave me for my birthday. The name of the game is “Forbidden Island” and it’s a lot of fun. It’s a collaborative game where everyone has to work together, grab four treasures then get off the island before it sinks. Highly recommend. It was really fun. We played that game several times on Christmas Eve and Christmas day.

We played another game, Codename, and though it was fun, it wasn’t as fun and it got too easy after a while. Blake wasn’t a big fan of that game and he got pretty frustrated with it so we didn’t play it as much.

We also watched UHF – do not recommend. It has Weird Al Yankovic in it and .. honestly, it’s just stupid. But Blake had run across it and thought it was funny and Brandon hadn’t seen it, so we watched it.

The boys spent the night with us Christmas Eve night and it felt good to have the whole family under one roof again.

Christmas Day! – Relaxed

We all rolled out of bed about 8, (Blake finally rolled out about 9), and we cooked the kids a big breakfast of scrambled eggs, waffles and bacon. (Brandon says this is his favorite part of the holiday). After breakfast, the kids opened their gifts. Christmas is not as exciting as it used to be. We don’t buy the kids anything fun anymore, we buy them things they need but hate to spend money on. Not exciting to open, but they appreciate them when it comes time to use them in their day-to-day life. We did buy them an Air Fryer and they seemed pretty interested in that. We kept the Air Fryer at our house so that we could experiment with it. Kevin chopped up sweet potatoes fries and we tried them in the fryer. They were good, but needed more oil, too dry. But we’re keeping the fryer at our house and we will learn how to make fried chicken in it on New Year’s Eve. That is one of Blake’s favorite meals and I know he won’t use the fryer unless we show him how to first, and I’m curious, to be honest, what it’s like and how it cooks the food.

LeRoy came over after gifts and Kevin made him breakfast and gave him his gifts. We all relaxed and did our own thing after that. We had pulled chicken wraps for lunch and then the boys and I went for a walk around the neighborhood because it was a beautiful, warm day. I heard on the news that our town hasn’t experienced a warm December like this since 1870’s.

Now, before you go calling climate change, read the last part of the previous sentence. The last time it was this warm was in the late 1800’s – meaning, it HAS happened before and that was waaay before gas cars and every other modern convenience that environmental wackos enthusiasts spout that is harmful to our climate.

Anyway …

After our walk, we played some more Forbidden Island and Sequence, then we ate turkey, mashed potatoes, green beans and corn for dinner. (And sweet potato fries in the air fryer). The kids stayed a bit after dinner then we helped them load up their gifts and they went home.

Christmas was chill and relaxed and I loved it!

Our 2021 Christmas Tree. I went minimalist on it this year. I quite liked it.

Dec 26: Sleepy

I took the day off from work so I enjoyed a four-day weekend. I’m not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow. Most of the providers are out-of-the office this week so it should be quiet. I plan on working on my CMA (certified medical assistant) credits this week because I have to have 10 credits before I’m eligible to renew my certificate and I have a 20% coupon that expires on 1-5-22 that I want to use because renewing that stuff ain’t cheap. It’s good for two years.

I spent a large part of my day planning what I want to post on this blog, my podcast(s) and writing this blog post today. It was nice. But I’m really sleepy so I’ll probably go to bed early tonight so I’m fresh and feeling sassy for work tomorrow.

Dec 31: Tired

Boys came over about 4:00. Blake and I made some chicken strips in the air fryer and they turned out great. I can’t wait to buy one for us. The oil sprayer I bought was disappointing – it doesn’t come with a mist feature?? Maybe I’m using it wrong. 

We watched The Matrix, both 1 and 2, and I really liked them. (Though the sex scene in the 2nd Matrix was really awkward to watch with the kids). Kevin wasn’t impressed with the second one and LeRoy was completely lost on both movies, but it was fun and relaxing. The boys have never been interested in watching movies with us in the past so it was a real treat to watch movies with them. I think they’re finally realizing there is a world outside their video games. We also watched Weekend at Bernies – it was Kevins’ suggestion. There are some funny moments, but overall, it’s a really dumb movie. 

Everyone stayed until about 1:00 AM – I was so tired I felt sick. But it was fun!

Welcome 2022! Please be nice!